TillyTV: Look whos talkin now!

19 months and he's already telling ppl to shut up lol

TillyTV: My Nephew bookie!

Aww i miss him bein this small!

"You never realize what you got until its gone"

It seems like ALL my relationships end because of all the dudes have they own shit going on and they say they "Don't have no time for a girlfriend or relationship" trust me I've heard the same shit from ALMOST every ex boyfriend. Its the classic line "its Not you its ME" bullshit, but the thing about it is, I know its not me lol it really must be them

I'm a good person, a GREAT friend I'm the kinda person that I would wanna date, like I'm waiting to find the one person who's just like me on the inside but what I look for in a dude on the outside. When that happends I'll be thee happiest girl in the history of the worldd!

I want quality time, conversation that makes me laugh and smile not that makes me wanna shank myself, and somebody I can spend time with, we don't have to be doing nothing and I'm having a good time. Thats how I felt about the one I loved. The feelings that I feel for my ex is what I want someone to feel for me. When will it come?

I ask God for signs of what to do yet I still get NO answer or maybe I'm gettin an answer but not really paying any attention to it. I'm not sure what to do.

Maybe one day he will do like the rest of my ex's did and come back telling me "I love you Chauntill, I want stupid, selfish an ungrateful and I want you to take me back" that's what I want because I love him so much and I want him to love me too. I just feel in my heart that its not gonna happen... I guess that could be the sign I've been looking for,, who know's... maybe he will wake up one day and come to his senses and think "I'm stupid Chauntill is the one for me, she's sucha good girlfriend and she deserves the best and i messed up i need to apologize" that right there is wat im waiting for..

Weight Loss

BEFORE


AFTER


Not a huge change in my sight but its DRASTIC in the sight of others, I think all the weight I lost came from my thighss and my butt.
I went from being 145 and now I weigh 122.

I don't eat. I can't help it, My emotions take over my whole body like they control me and if stress is at a high then I don't eat. From early July til mid September I had been going back an forth to the doctors office gettin blood drawn taking urine tests getting ultra sounds an xrays for them to figure out what was wrong with me and they had no clue then they finally realized it was a urinary tract infection.

I never felt so awkward in my body through all the years I've been living. The boy I love(my 1st love) told me he wasn't sexually attracted to me anymore. Pretty much my new found skinniness made him sick to his stomach. Other people have been telling him I look sick and my head is too big for my body, I am already self conscientious enough without people saying bad things about the way I look.

I'm not sure if this is right to say.. sometimes I think if I was to get hurt and end up in the hospital would anybody come to visit me. I feel like I don't have anybody. even the one I love isnt here for me, I have been trying to gain weight but the constant thought of all the stuff ive been going through makes me sick to my stomach and not want to eat. Maybe I should talk to someone I don't really know what to do anymore

Laptop Love

I am in love! Yes and its true I'm in love with this new laptop I just bought a few days ago lol. Its a commpaQ nd I love it lol. I can now promise to post more because I have no job and I only go to school part time so yes nothing but time on my hands. More interesting posts to come videos pictures and all..

Boyfriends, Friendships and Relationships.. ugh! :-\

If you have ever read my past blogs then I've posted plenty about my love life, since this blog is about me obviously... After all the love searching, then no searching something came to me. Little did I know it was ALL a trick, a lie, a plan to make me fall in love and surrender my virginity!

Thats what happend and sadly to say the shit worked!. It all started May 29th 2010 it was exactly two days after my high school graduation and me n tyrone(my bestie) went to the mall to meet up with my other friend mr.Anonymous. I was happily single at the time, not really talkin to anyone in that way I was jus kinda doin me. The conversation that i had with Mr. Anonymous that night had me thinking "Wow he's really letting me in and opening up he must like me!" He was so cute, sexy body and he just FIT what I was looking for. We went to my house after swimming and we were alone (my mom was on a date) while we were tryin to figure out how he was gone get home we were sitting on the bed jus lookin at eachother then he asked me out.

Yes I was a bit shocked by this, because it was our 1st time hangin out but something about it felt so right so I said yes.

Skipping past all the sapping relationship drama shit. Onto the good stuff.

Yess I am proud to admit I was a 18 year old high school graduate who was still a virgin waiting to give the prescious gift of virginity to the one who loved me! After a bout a whole month of dating(but 2 months of talkin) I loved him, the conversation Never got old, he made me laugh an smile when I was with him, about a week before the sex I told him I loved him. I wasnt sure how he took it.. I mean yes he had already said it but it was over the phone kinda thing so the day I told him I was in love with him was July 2nd 2010 and I specifically remember because that was the day I gave myself to him, mentally, physically, and emotionally.. In my mind he was "The One"

We had about 3 weeks of fighting and arguing then by July 25th 2010 it was over, we had broken up. I was hurt, but he told me that he just couldnt handle a relationship right at that moment but we could "be friends" me still being in love I accepted it.

From the time we broke up I lost count of how many times we hung out. We had been having the best times since the break up but something was still missing for me.

He says "we were friends" I say "we had the relationship without the title".. the BIG thing that killed the "relationship without the title" he got back with his first love/ex/possible baby momma. My heart literally felt broken there was a pain in my chest and it wouldnt go away.

Have you ever felt like somebody said something to you to piss you off jus to see your reaction? I believe thats what he did to me on Thursday this past week. It started with innocent conversation that he tainted with lies, an stories of sexual encounters with HER which I really didn"t want to kno.. he proceeded to tell me "You never meant anything to me, I never loved you, never will, you so stupid I got you to buy me stuff when I aint that stupid I would never spend my money on you, I had you cryin over me, it didnt take long to get in your pants either, I just used you as some pussy until i could get back with HER".


Painful words to read from someone who you claimed as your "1st love" from that message I decided that he was trying to purposely break me down and I wasn't having that kinda negativeness in my life. After saying what I had to say I deleted his number and pics and ALL 7,000 of our msgs exchanged between us. I was cutting him off.

I was used, mistreated and emotionally abused by someone who I loved! I loved him so much I wanted to be around him all the time, he was my bestfriend or so I thought.

I try not to trip on it too much now because he didnt deserve me yet I gave all of myself to this "man".

I know I'm only 18 but I'm a good woman! I've always been very responsible. I know that if I got a guy who treated me like a queen and loved me for who I truely am not for what I look like or what I could give them. I'm a sweet kind hearted person who jus wants to have fun without all the games. Im so easy to please all i ask for is quality time!

He didnt seem like sucha asshole when we were friends but now i know the truth.

I wish I could take it all back! All of it, the day at the pool, the 5 times we had sex, all the emotional conversations I want it back! I know its impossible but it would be really nice..

Word of advice make sure if your gonna date your friend make sure youve seen there true colors already.

Until I find a guy who's good and can provide for himself an have some goals, then I will remain Abstainent AND single!

He was a big waste of my time... I sincerly apologize to the female who ends up being with him forever.

In My Mind episode #1.

Getting over your 1st love

 http://m.wikihow.com/Get-Over-Your-First-Love 

LoveLost- TillyBabii productions!

Me actin silly lol

New Edition - Can You Stand The Rain

New Edition - If It Isn't Love

Lovelost - Trey songz

Yo side of the bed

Made a sistah break down and cry man.. Live life while you can you never know when it will end

I can lick my elbow! Can you?

So i was watching "GoodLuck Chuck" with my friend and they said on there that "its impossible to lick your elbow" well i tried and i can do it.

Money 2 Blow

Man okay so Gettin paid everyweek has its perks I guess lol. Ive gotten like 3 checks already and I barely started shoppin for me the other day. I bought these shoes and they only cost $21.67 bomb ass price right?? They sick tho ill b postin more pics soon cuz i got ma hair done.

<$

For the love of MONEY..

I kno sometimes i can sound like im obsessed with money but im really not. Its jus that i was broke for along time and now that im workin nd gettin paid its like fuck yea... im bouta leave so ill post later i guess maybe a new video soon

Jerkin

One day me nd ma nigga Tyrone was bored waitn 4 ma momma to get back to pick us up n take us to his house.. so we made this video i was killin it in the beginnin but i messed up n idk what he was doin. Lmao check it

Work

So work has been going smoothly lol. I recently learned that I'm going to need to bring engery drinks in the morning because I be sooooooo tired! lol like I'll be cool once I get in but when 9:30am or maybe 10:00am roll around my eyes get heavy I be feeling ready to leave and I only work from 8am-12pm.

So after work tomorrow,, after I go eat and chill maybe take a nap, I'll go up to F.Y.E and buy some energy drinks like 5 hour energy or something like that lol.

I think I'm getting a computer for my cubicle tomorrow since my manager is coming back from a business trip so that might give me something else to do for my boring 4 hours lol.

I'll try to post again because I'm going shopping I think with this next check(since i get paid everyweek) and I need some new shoes and a few shorts, skinny jeans, and cute shirts so more pics will be coming definately lol.

Then I'm saving for my laptop which only costs $250 and I should be getting that within the next 2 weeks or so because its on my list of important things i need.

I love money and making it so not complaining.
Well gotta go to get ready for bed got work in the morning at 8am which means I gotta get up at 6:20am and its like 11:05pm right now lol so i gotta shower and fix my crazy head then go to bed.


Like I said I'm going to try to blog again tomorrow but no promises lol
night!

The Karate Kid..

So June 18th not really a typical day lol. Got up late, went to work, came home. Oh yea and it was my lil brother curtis's birthday he turned 9, for his birthday i gave him $5 and the whole family and my bestfriend went to the movies to see the "karate kid" and i have to tell you it was ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES THIS YEAR. Jaden Smith did such a great job like i actually believed he was a little boy whose mom forced him to move to china, it was so good like he should win an academy award or a freakin grammy for it and he's only 11 like thats a big thing.

Here is the movie trailer


Not only is Jaden doing movies, but also he's rapping and he did a song with Justin Bieber that video is under this.. but he also appeared on the cover of this months Jet magazine he will be as big or even bigger than both his parents Will and Jada.. Good job!

The movie is so good I'm gonna go see it again lol!
Never Say Never Justin Bieber ft Jaden Smith

Video Update#4000

Video update! Didnt feel like typing lol ima b on alot more once i get my laptop which will be soon!

My promise to you...

So since all this stuff has been kinda makin me busy ive been kinda neglecting this blog and im sorry for anybody who reads this.. im sorry i mostly be on mobile so i dont get on as much and post as much as i shud but i will post more i promise.. wit videos pictures and all k?? So my promise is to post atleast 3 times aweek anything exciting that happends to me ill post about it... so this is the 2nd post of the week and ill post again!! Later

Fuckin great shit

Everything is going fuckin great right now.. got a job! Start tomorrow! New boyfriend Named Davion'Tae!, got some money but bouta get more.. my swag stopped bein stupid nd started bein more hard lol jkjk... im jus feelin so blessed right now life is great! Need to apply for MCC and then everything will be even more wonderful!

Graduation

Okay so graduation happend and i dont really feel like writing what all happend so im gonna do a video blog instead ill post it soon

Done with it

Friday May 21st was officially my last day of high school. It was an end to 4 years of laughs, tears, parties, boyfriends, past friends, homework assignments, tests, job applications, presentations, essays and millions of math questions, right along with the drama, arguements and annoying teachers and administrators. Funny to say but all the time I spent hating high school I was actually having fun. Now that its over I'm going to miss it.

Now its time for me to move on to college, and working. Trying to move out, with a room mate, get started on working in the field I want to be in which is business and entreprenuership by starting to promote clubs and stuff while I'm in school.

4 years of high school is over and now I'm going onto 2-4 years of college. Graduation is in 4 days and I'll post high school days pics and graduation pics as well.. :-)

Update!

Its been awhile since i posted! I have a boyfriend his name is Anthony he's 21 and i met him at club rain lol i dance wit his friend and he started dancin on me too then later he asked me for my number! We talked for like a month nd a week then started officially dating. He took me on 2 dates and those were fun.


I wonder how long this relationship will last but im not gonna guess cuz it might come true. But he doesnt seem lyk other guys when i tld him i was a virgin he didnt jump right into "i wanna fuck you" mode he was like okay i respect that.

I wanna let all dudes kno that I'm not just gone have sex with someone just because we talk or just because we become boyfriend and girlfriend its not a free pass to say lets fuck now lol

I'm a virgin because I want to wait and do it with someone I love. I was feelin love like feelings for this one guy nd I was gonna have sex with him but ended up changin my mind.

I am the way I am because I have morals and respect for myself.

Why relationships are hard?

Why are relationships hard? Why do i hate getting to know new guys if a relationship is the main interest? Why do i feel like its my fault sometimes? The first kiss who should initiate it? How many dates before you wanna make it official? Relationships are hard because we as people make them hard. Forcing ourselfs to date people who we really don't have an interest in or just plain arguing about dumb shit..


why i hate gettin to kno new guys when gettin in a relationship is the main focus. Well in my experience its easier to date someone who you start out bein friends with because its not awkward when you first go on a date, or when you talk more than you nomally did its jus like adding the intimate part to the friendship making it easier in my opinion.


Sometimes i feel like relationships dont work out because of me and my girly emotions. And the reason i say that is because sometimes i care too much that it will scare the guy off and sometimes i dont care enough and that makes them think i dont wanna talk to them cuz if i talk to them im okay and if i dont im okay too it doesnt really phase me none. The key to making it work is pretty much finding a common ground. Care enough so they can tell and its not jus lyk "i dont really give a fuck"..

The first kiss: is not a very difficult subject but in my opinion whoever can initiate the first kiss. Doesnt matter if its a man and a woman, man and a man or woman and woman. I personally would like the man or boy initiate the first kiss. I dont like going first. And i dont like talkin about it either. If you wanna kiss me just do it. Unless im lookin at you like "nigga please" then i might just like you. I think its cuter when im suprised.


There is no specific date to make it official its just when you feel it. I could be "talkin" to a dude for a few weeks or months only go on 1 date with them then decide i wanna make it official its all about the people in it and how they feel.

I dont like to rush into relationships with people because its a recipe for disaster.

Im tired of being single but then I'm scared of gettin into another relationship that could possibly fail.

I use this blog as a way to express myself when I have no one to talk to.. I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading

Diary

Dear diary,

Today has not been the best day. I found out that i need a new prom date because i was gonna take Al but he's 21 and the paper said they cnt be over the age of 20 so now i dont have a date and dont kno who im goin wit nomore. So much stress has come from Prom shit its annoying. I just want it to all be situated. Then to top off the bad news about that my sister charnay and me got into it over some dumb shit. Im so tired of arguin wit her i just want her to move out or im gonna have to. I can't live in a house with someone who one minute wants to hangout wit me and be coo and the next minute actin extra dumb toward me tryna cuss me out and shit I'm not gone take that shit. So momma got in it and the next thing you know its a big arguement going on and now momma tryna act lyk she mad at me cause when I went outside I walked past her and her friend and I heard her say "you see what I mean" and I was like "bye" nd then she goes "um hello" nd I'm like "I said bye" then she said "dnt call me to come get you either" nd I said "I won't". How is she mad about me arguin with my sister? When it had nothin to do with her? Does that even make sense? No.. I don't even care if she's mad I jus know I'm not gone just sit around nd hear her talkin about me when she on the phone like come on thats childish and your supposed to be the parent. I'm just gone spend the rest of the day in my room and not speak to none of them. I dont even care nomore

Urrrsher baby!! Lol

So things have been alil different in Ushers career since hes been married And divorced lol but i like his music and i might even go get his new album but heres a preview of a video that i like song is Daddys home

Everest!

For as long as i can remember I've had my career picked out. It was gonna be like this... be a celebrity like singer or rapper or actress or something but make sure to own a whole bunch of businesses. I've decided to make it to where i own the business first. I want to be the biggest entrepreneur ever. Own the most businesses or just really good ones. So I'm going to Everest College Phoenix for their business management / entrepreneurship program for 2 years to get my Associates degree.. gonna open up my own business after that! Sooo excited you dont even know! The only thing that has been stressing me in job searching because school definately isnt gonna pay for itself unless i get a bunch of grants and scholarships.. pray for me to find a job soon guys! :) but um yea ima go jump in the shower I'll post again soon maybe my new video on youtube??? Lol

Pics and shit

I got swagg I got swagg You dont believe me? bitch check ma swagg lol i came up with that on my own so dont jock it!!
























okay thats enough pics for now lol.

on to the videos.. so about 2 months ago I actually started putting my videos on youtube to see peoples reaction to my long tongue and now i got like 19 subscribers to my youtube channel and dudes send me messages tellin me how much they love my tongue lol some would think it was creepy but i atually dont mind the liking my tongue lol i like it too..

this first video was the first tongue video i put up and i got like over 1,000 views on it lol


this second video has about 947 views on it lol and i had to make it so people dont think i suck dick or anything like that cuz i dont


this 3rd video has 553 views and i was bored so thats why i made this video lol


On to the next chapter of Chauntill videos on youtube lol so the weekend before last my best brother from another mother was stayin over my house nd we was supposed to be cleaning but we took a break and made a few videos lol

this 1st one is back that ass up lol i think the name says it all oh yea and the guy in the video is my lil brother nd my friend was holdin the phone to record it



this next one i was just actin dumb tryin impersonate the guys i see on youtube "hiprollin" haha it was hella funny so i put it up


i think for now this is enough lol

Rihanna

Rihanna has changed alot since these days...


Maybe it had something to do with Chris Brown.. idk but I like how she is its like back then she was young and innocent and now she's a grown woman and it shows..

some other new videos that I like of hers..




















People hated on her super hard after she was abused by chris brown i guess they took his side and i gotta let you know im not tryna be a sidetaker in the war between her and chris but its obvious she wins i mean i grew up in a family where there was domestic violence with my parents so when i seen her beat up like that i felt bad but then again i understood her pain Nobody should be beating like that and to all the girls talkin trash sayin she deserved it (dont be tryna think back on how dumb you was when it happens to you) lol.. she so hard lol thats no lie i give her ma props!

Lil Wayne (wetter)

He killed this shit no doubt

Ready! for Trey Songz

I've been a fan of Trey since the first album.. he's sexy, he got vocals and now he got body too lol but naw real talk his music is good. some of my personal favs are
1. Just gotta make it
2. Can't help but wait
3. Wonder woman
4. Roll play
5. Ihop
6. Store run
7. Last time
8. Invented sex
9. Neighbors kno my name
10. I need a girl
11. Say Ahh
and some others that he's been on with other artists.














couldn't find the actual video so this will have to do lol

blazers!!!

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So for a while now I've kinda had an obsession with Blazers! I want some so bad but ma moneys been goin to other places so I haven't had the money or time to go buy none but when I do get some man ima cop lyk 5 pairs lol I've seen some sexy ass ones and I'm impressed so I'm gettin em lol.

last time

Last time I blogged me nd Natalie were friends nd that's no more! I'm not trippin about it because friends come an go just like dudes so if they aren't good enough to be in my presence then I kick em outta my life.. its spring break and gosh I haven't been doing anything fun. I was sick yesterday so that's one excuse lol and helpin ma momma paint the house so that's something productive I've been doing lol.. I've learned in my time being friends with certain people that friends are supposed to be like your family. Someone you can trust with your secrets knowing that once you have a small arguement that they won't just go blurting your business to the world and using everything you've told them agaisnt you a real friend wouldn't do that.


If someone loves you then they will let you go and if they come back to you then it was meant to be. I think that saying goes for love and friends as well. Me and Natalie had our ups and downs throughout our friendship but after everything that's been goin on I realize that if she was a "true friend" she wouldn't have tried to hurt me like she did.

Its pretty sad that our friendship didn't last til the end of Senior year in high school but oh well she had me as her friend andlost me now she must deal with the consiquences or however you spell that lol.

Me and Tyrone have had our ups and downs as well and throughout our friendship we've never had an arguement this big and this time Natalie had a hand in trying to make our friendship suffer because she was mad at me about some shit that's no excuse to wana ruin my frienship with someone else just because we beefin at the momment you kno? Nd that's why I've decided that she can kiss my ass nd I don't ever wanna have anything to do with her.

I guess in life you must leave a lesson on friends one time or the other and I've learned a few different ones in my short life time and I just wanna have those friends that are there for you no matter what..

So right about now Ashleys the only one I fully trust and Tyrone and I need to still fix a few things in our friendship in order to get back to where we were before the drama.

Sorry! im back baybeeee

Okay so its been alil over a month since I wrote last and I apologize for my absence lol I know my fans missed me but I've been busy and not really getting on the computer that much. I've been partying and hanging out with friends alot and having a good ass time too lol. Still single not really looking and talking to my main bitches. Natalies bday is coming soon so I gotta get her something idk what though lol. Then after that spring break is coming up and I have no clue what I'm doing over the break then after that we only have less than 60 days til graduation and oh gosh I'm ready but also alil nervous tho. But Ashley is coming down for graduation hopefully so I'm siked to see her cuz its been months since I last saw her...


That's pretty much all that's going on.

I got new pics to post up so I'll do that soon.

:) tillybabii aka ReesesPieces

Tipsy in dis club!

okay so spectacular from pretty ricky made a video challenge of him grinding in these red draws it was soooo fuckin funny i had to post the video and some responces to the video.
so video number 1 is him dancin in his red draws.

then video number 2 is the reaction from this dude and his friends



then this next video is of him doin part 2 which is much better than part 1



this video is a reaction to the 2nd video

yeeeeaaaaaaa buddy

Alright so I'm back by popular demand lol. My birthday is in 3days nd I'll finally be 18! Nd yesterday ma momma finally decided I could have a party! Yes that's exactly what I wanted! We went out nd bought speakers nd my friends gonna let me borrow her ipod so hell yea! I'm super excited. The party will be jan 23rd on my grandma(daddy's mom) bday. So we gone be celebrating in all forms! I'm jus really happy! Got ma bestfriends. Got some money. No boyfriend no problem. Skools goin good and I'm hopin nd prayin this party is gone be crackin.. that's it for now. Hit up the spacerr for more info www.myspace.com/queen_tilly_boo

January 10th 2010

So today my grandmother would have been 71 ;-( its sad that she didnt make it this far but they say everything happens for a reason which i kinda believe. She taught me to do what makes me happy, (even if it may hurt peoples feelings) its my life nd i should be able to live it not worrying about what others think. I always felt like the special granddaughter because my bday was always 10 days after my grandmother(moms mom) nd 3 days before my grandma(dads mom). Even though neither one is walking the earth with me anymore i kno they are in a better place watching over me as my two most important guardian angels. i love you both Shirley Porter and Mahassin Hameed Rest in Peace