First Love,, Does the Love ever die?

Last year I "fell in love" for the first time and gave the dude my EVERYTHING, my mind, my body, my soul, my virginity, my love and everything else and didn't get half of that back, all I got way lies, cheating and a broken heart.. I suddenly feel like cryin now that I'm writing this lol #WEIRD but I don't know why I still feel for him, he has a baby now, he's still a lame and nothing has changed like at all I still love him, I want to have sex with him and fall asleep in his arms I want him to love me and only me n give up all the groupies he got but its not in my best interest to still have feelings for this guy I mean he put me through sooooooooooooo much shit that I refuse to sit here n type it all down to you because it was 7 months of lies and deciet me falling in love and him just lying to me.. after all the bad I still just want some of the good, I'm lonely I want somebody to hold me at night, I want someone I can talk to after a stressful day someone who understands me, listens to me and can just take my mind off the bullshit, Its so hard to find that these days because all guys wanna be "players" and have 55 girls they talk to / fuck and it makes no sense why wouldn't you want someone to love you? why would you wanna keeps switching partners n have to keep getting to know people? why wouldn't you just be happy with one person you really like or love, that you've known for awhile, who makes you happy and that you want to be with? it makes no sense I'm 19 and in less than 6 months I'll be 20 and I've been single for a year now I'm tired of the single life I just wanna be loved by somebody other than friends or family.... I don't believe my ex can give me this so why do I still have feelings for him? I have no clue.. Was the love real? Idk bout him but to me it was, you ever love somebody so much you don't have to speak you can just be happy sitting next to them? that's how I felt for him. I wanna feel that way again just for somebody new who can return the feelings. Hopefully one day I'll find him so that this old stressful meaningless love goes away and dies. -Chauntill

New Car

White chocolate(1996 Ford Contour) gave up on me some time last month :( so I had to sell it. Went and got a new car Blueberry(2004 kia rio) then a week and a half later the engine went out so right after the car place let me pick a new car so I picked a 2001 Nissan Altima and guess what?? it has RIMSS! ahah its soooo sexy I love it.. #Swagggg right?? I think so too ;) anyways more posts coming soon need to start getting back into marketing online because school will be back in soon and I won't have much time to do it then.. expect like 5 more posts within the week.

White Chocolate <3 First car

Blueberry <3 Second car

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Nissan Altima (doesn't have a name yet)

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Restless mind syndrome/Money woes

A young entrepreneur,,


Yes that is what I'm trying to be. I've read in several different places online and even in my monthly subscription to entrepreneur magazine that its better to dabble in business when you are young like high school or college because thats the time when your not yet used to weekly checks and don't have alot of bills to pay, it also says "those who get into business and entrepreneurship early like high school or freshman in college are more likely to become successful adults".

I actually find that statement only half way true.. I'm 19 years old I've been finding my own ways to get paid since I was like 10 or 11 with this note book and my dream of owning a corner store lol (yeah I know funny) but once I got 15 I started working at the school cafeteria for like 30 to 40 bucks every two weeks. Then when I turned 16 I got my first real job at pizza hut, ever since then I've become a-custom to getting paid weeky checks. But now I'm facing the dilema do I get another job that pays more yet keep them both AND also try to start a business? I mean the money I make working at Subway(my current job) can go towards the funding of my business I wanna start with shirts then branch out to Snap back hats, hoodies, shoes and all I'm actually trying to decide what to do and where to go from here which is hard.

I don't really like working at Subway I want another job that gets me thousands per pay check or really high hundreds like 500-600 a check... I've been thinking about getting a job at the local grocery store they get paid every thursday. If I get another job AND still work at Subway then I could be getting like 600-1,000 a month which is way more than I'm making now which will make it easier to get a new car and invest money into my business operations whether it be buying electronics, purses, shirts and clothes online or via craigslist.com or amazon.com

I get paid tomorrow and already feel like I'm gonna be broke when I get it I think my mind is always on which kind of stresses me out, I'm constantly thinking about how to make money, which business I should open its like I'm very money motivated maybe I should just stop stressing over it and just do it start whichever business I feel will work best for the summer I have from now May 20th 2:45am until like August 20 something... If I start the t-shirt business what's the worst that could happen? #1 people don't like the shirts, people don't buy the shirts #2 somebody could rip off my designs and ideas, #3 I don't make as much money as I could... the odds actually aren't that bad at all I just don't want to lose money while trying to make it you know?

I need to be up in like 5 hours so I should probably go to sleep... If I can actually get to sleep.. I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna start the t-shirt line and see where it goes...... nuff said..I'm outtie thanks for reading mystery person :)

Starting Fresh!

So I'm back and gonna try this whole blogging thing one more time lol. Its summer right now I only have one job and school is out that leaves me with enough time to blog about things I like and to advertise some of my business things that I have coming soon... T-shirt line that I've been working on is coming really soon so I will update more on it just be ready because bestabelieve its going DOWN!

SHOES!!

Most black people(I say black people because most of them like to say "oh I only where these kinda shoes blah blah blah")chose to stick to one brand of shoe that they wear because its known as the best or because some rapper made a song about some shoes they wear so the people wanna be just like them,,, well NOT me! I don't choose my clothes or my shoes based on who made the shoe or if its a "name brand" I base my decisions off how the shoe looks to me if I think its cute then hey I'll wear it. I've never owned a pair of chucks aka converse but I recently seen some cute ones and I'm going to buy them. So far right now all brands of shoes that I own are 5 pairs of Vans, 2 pairs of Pro-keds(by rockawear) 1 pair of air forced ones, 1 pair of addidas, 1 pair of black nikes(only wear them as work shoes tho) 2 pair of Nike SB blazers, 2 pair of Jordans and 2 pairs of Nike dunks, oh yea and I almost forgot about my black white and pink skater shoes I forgot who theyre by lol and I have a pair of green an pink low top nikes.

most of the pictures you will see are of shoes that I want to buy or that I would wear.

these right here is sexy i'd wear these


I love the fact that these shoes are shiny red! my favorite color and they high top with velcroe straps No strings! oh yea lol


I love these blazers right here they remind me of the burberry design so I'd wear these!


I own these shoes and I love them.. I have Nothing to match with them so everytime I wear em I jus go simple lol white v-neck with accesories to match the shoes its the best i can do for now lol



Jordans Retro 8's red-yellow-white
when I first saw these shoes online I fell madly in love lol the website I found them at currently is out of stock so Idk where to buy them but I want them!!



These shoes seem alil BRIGHT but if anybody truely knows me i love bright colors and shoes things that make me stand out I mean look at my new years eve goin out outfit...
sexy right??? I call it my all orange everything! even tho one of my shirts was white lol I was lookin bomb!
but for now I think I'm done I gotta go write down some more ideas and reciepies for my business plan so follow me on twitter @TillyzAh_BADDIE
and i'll post again soon! outro!!

New Years Resolution! 2011

My new years resolution for 2010 was to make $5,000 I still need to do some calculating but I think I might have accomplished it lol.

My 2011 new years resolution is.. wait I have more than 1 so I'm gonna list them all and I don't have to accomplish them in the order that I post them lol.

1.Start my first business.

2.Get into a REAL relationship with a guy where we actually go on dates and things like that.

3.Focus on school, no distractions while in class!(no procrastination)

4.Get a job

5. Make $7,000(seems resonable considering I made about 4 or 5,000 in 2010)

6.Get my drivers license

7.Pay off all my debts

8.Get my car fixed

9.Get a tattoo

10.Gain 200 more followers on twitter lol THAT WAS A FAKE ONE LOL.

I believe I can accomplish everything on this list and I will make it happen!

New Year!! 2011

Okay,, I haven't been posting pretty much NOTHING on this blog in along time. I might have out grown it I'm not sure yet it will still stay posted but I'm thinking about starting a new blog on a different website.

Still not sure but I might do it for the business