Tuesday, November 24, 2009

There's a hole in my heart! Rest In Peace

Okay so over the summer we found out my maternal Grandmother Mohassin Hammed had colin-rectal cancer. The rest of that month was filled with tears. She was in the hospital for months then finally got out and got moved to a nursing home.

Sadly yesterday November 23,2009 she lost her battle with cancer and died at the age of 70. The way that I found out was the hardest of them all. My aunt called and I didn't hear the phone ring so when I came out the bathroom I heard the message on the answering machine saying she was gone.

My heart sank in my chest nd fell in my stomach nd I almost through up. I couldn't believe it. I'm still in shock though, I haven't seen her in 2 years and only got to tell her I loved her over the phone but I know she knew I did. I kind of figured it was coming soon because she had been feeling worse and losing a lot of weight. I felt sooooooooo bad for not having a chance to say good bye because when my mom talked to her on online Skype last week I didn't come home when I was supposed to. I cried pretty much all yesterday nd only once 2day so I'm making progress.

If she didn't come visit us in 2001 when my brother was born then I wouldn't have had another blanket. She's made me 3 blankets cuz she knew its my comfort thing something that connects me with her and home no matter where I'm at. So I thank her for that.

She taught me so much and I will never forget it. I LOVE YOU Grandmother and I promise to make you proud! Nd to all my family keep your head up.

Thanks to all my friends who have been with me in this my most important time of need. Thank you and I love you, Natalie, Micah, Ashley, Tyrone, Lashauna and more thank yal.

2009 has been a terrible year and oh god I can't wait for it to be over!

Soon I will be gettin my first tattoo nd now I officially kno what it will be. Angel wings and my grandma's name because now she's my guardian angel watchin over me.

R.I.P Grandmother!

Lately

Okay so I kno I haven't posted in ALONG time but A LOT has happend since I last posted. I'm still in my relationship with Harry but I feel like its kinda startin to dwindle down to nothing because there's little to no communication. I haven't talked to him in 2 days nd since his Dad's a asswhole when I call he'll hurry up and say he's not there and then hangup the phone before I can say to have Harry call me so idk what to do.

Micah Moved Back! Yay right?
I've been waiting for her to move back since forever and she finally did. We've hung out prolly 3 or 4 times since she came back so yea expect to here more about her.

Ashley moved back. Haven't seen her yet, but we stopped arguing and are talking more and more.

Me nd Natalie have been talking more nd gettin back close again! Totally a good thing lol. We went to Josh's 18 birthday party on Saturday nd man I gotta tell you that shit was crackin!! Niggas had me holdin up the wall and I was workin some ppl till they thought somethim would fall off hahaha it was A LOT of fun. So ima start bein a party girl lol as soon as I get back to myself.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Halloween/Homecoming Dance!

Okay so last Saturday was Halloween and it was also the Homecoming dance for my school! I went with my Booski Harry nd here are some goofy lookin and some cute pictures of us that my momma took before we left!

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he needs some practice in the smiling department lol but you guys kno boys gotta look all thuggish in pictures lol either that or serious but yea there they are!

Paranormal Activity

Okay so I finally saw the movie and I only watched it because I wanted to see what all the hype was about. I was watching Maury and they talked about it, I watched Tyra and they talked about it and to be honest I'm not really sure if I believe in ghost or whatever but I wanted to know why everybody was calling it "one of the scariest movies ever".

So I watched it with my Momma nd sister Charnay and I have to tell you guys that me and my family don't fall for shit that easy we are very critical of a lot of things so the whole time all the "scary stuff" was going on we were like "there coulda been people in the house making foot steps nd banging on the wall". So we just weren't believing it.

There was exactly 1 parts in the movie that freaked me out the first time I saw it nd that was because the beginning was so boring I stopped paying attention then it was lyk somebody walkin up the stairs lyk hearing foot steps then running foot steps then the door slammed and there was banging on the wall lol the only reason I was freaked out for 2 mesely seconds was because I stopped payin attention then when I looked again all that was happening lol but that was about it. But yea honestly they coulda did a better job with the story line and plot because in the beginning it was just the guy with a video camera and wasn't really understanding why they were filming so they shoulda worked on that.

Then the guy(Micah S) was jus shouting out random obssenities (or how ever you spell that) for no reason at all like when something banged on the wall he would yell out "Fuck" in a really nerdy voice lmao it was funny. And the girl(Katie F) she was gettin on my nervous the whole movie because she was just whining all the time like damn bitch shut up! I kno it was her character but she did a good job of annoying me lol!

On some real shit though the movie is (Wack, Crap, Shit, Boring, Dumb, Stupid, and a HUGE waste of money!) I don't wanna sound like a hater but it was just not a good movie and I kno how it feels to waste your money on something that you didn't like so Don't go see this movie! It is Garbage! I have no idea why its making so much money but I'm telling you Don't Waste Your Money or your prescious time go watch something better! That's about it for my movie review on "Paranormal Activity"!

Bye!
Tilly Babii<3

Bitches Be Trippin

Wow okay so for along time I've been kinda trippin cuz I've been single for 11 months right?? So I finally start talkin to this guy and we're gettin kinda serious(not love serious but I think he's gonna be my new boyfriend serious).

So in this time of being single I've always had my friends to talk to about any and everything and to fill the void of nothing being in a relationship. So I finally start to get in one and pretty much all my friends(the super close ones atleast) I haven't talked to them in along time.

It feels like I needed them all that time I was single, and I still need them now and its like they're not even there for me anymore.

I finally get what I wanted (a boyfriend or a guy with boyfriend material)(we're not official yet). But yea I get what I wanted but feel like I'm slowly losing my friends.

I don't wanna be one of those girls who doesn't have any friends just has her boyfriend, cuz once her and the guy break up she's alone. I wanna have my friends and boyfriend.

I know how to balance the 2 I just wish I knew why my friends were giving off these vibes and stopped reaching out??

I can never have it all its pure bullshit if you ask me!!

I'm not one of those girls who just quit talkin to they friends because a new guy is in my life I'm not that way at all nd I won't become that way either cuz I think its dumb.

I mean its whatever if females wanna start actin like they can't be my friend cuz I got a a dude. Whatever I don't even care nomore.

I'm happy tho. I finally have a boy in my life that wants to spend time gettin to kno me and jus hangin out!!
I finally saved the money to get my phone!! Yay G1 I'm comin soon to get you babii<3 lol
Nd I might have a job coming soon so my life jus keeps gettin better! Micah's finally movin back! Me nd Natalie are gettin closer again, things are gettin easier nd I'll be the happiest person if I could top it off with a job nd some money!
I went to Homecoming on Halloween so I'll post pictures in the next blog! But for now ima go eat! See ya

Tilly Babii<3