Why relationships are hard?

Why are relationships hard? Why do i hate getting to know new guys if a relationship is the main interest? Why do i feel like its my fault sometimes? The first kiss who should initiate it? How many dates before you wanna make it official? Relationships are hard because we as people make them hard. Forcing ourselfs to date people who we really don't have an interest in or just plain arguing about dumb shit..


why i hate gettin to kno new guys when gettin in a relationship is the main focus. Well in my experience its easier to date someone who you start out bein friends with because its not awkward when you first go on a date, or when you talk more than you nomally did its jus like adding the intimate part to the friendship making it easier in my opinion.


Sometimes i feel like relationships dont work out because of me and my girly emotions. And the reason i say that is because sometimes i care too much that it will scare the guy off and sometimes i dont care enough and that makes them think i dont wanna talk to them cuz if i talk to them im okay and if i dont im okay too it doesnt really phase me none. The key to making it work is pretty much finding a common ground. Care enough so they can tell and its not jus lyk "i dont really give a fuck"..

The first kiss: is not a very difficult subject but in my opinion whoever can initiate the first kiss. Doesnt matter if its a man and a woman, man and a man or woman and woman. I personally would like the man or boy initiate the first kiss. I dont like going first. And i dont like talkin about it either. If you wanna kiss me just do it. Unless im lookin at you like "nigga please" then i might just like you. I think its cuter when im suprised.


There is no specific date to make it official its just when you feel it. I could be "talkin" to a dude for a few weeks or months only go on 1 date with them then decide i wanna make it official its all about the people in it and how they feel.

I dont like to rush into relationships with people because its a recipe for disaster.

Im tired of being single but then I'm scared of gettin into another relationship that could possibly fail.

I use this blog as a way to express myself when I have no one to talk to.. I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading