SHOES!!

Most black people(I say black people because most of them like to say "oh I only where these kinda shoes blah blah blah")chose to stick to one brand of shoe that they wear because its known as the best or because some rapper made a song about some shoes they wear so the people wanna be just like them,,, well NOT me! I don't choose my clothes or my shoes based on who made the shoe or if its a "name brand" I base my decisions off how the shoe looks to me if I think its cute then hey I'll wear it. I've never owned a pair of chucks aka converse but I recently seen some cute ones and I'm going to buy them. So far right now all brands of shoes that I own are 5 pairs of Vans, 2 pairs of Pro-keds(by rockawear) 1 pair of air forced ones, 1 pair of addidas, 1 pair of black nikes(only wear them as work shoes tho) 2 pair of Nike SB blazers, 2 pair of Jordans and 2 pairs of Nike dunks, oh yea and I almost forgot about my black white and pink skater shoes I forgot who theyre by lol and I have a pair of green an pink low top nikes.

most of the pictures you will see are of shoes that I want to buy or that I would wear.

these right here is sexy i'd wear these


I love the fact that these shoes are shiny red! my favorite color and they high top with velcroe straps No strings! oh yea lol


I love these blazers right here they remind me of the burberry design so I'd wear these!


I own these shoes and I love them.. I have Nothing to match with them so everytime I wear em I jus go simple lol white v-neck with accesories to match the shoes its the best i can do for now lol



Jordans Retro 8's red-yellow-white
when I first saw these shoes online I fell madly in love lol the website I found them at currently is out of stock so Idk where to buy them but I want them!!



These shoes seem alil BRIGHT but if anybody truely knows me i love bright colors and shoes things that make me stand out I mean look at my new years eve goin out outfit...
sexy right??? I call it my all orange everything! even tho one of my shirts was white lol I was lookin bomb!
but for now I think I'm done I gotta go write down some more ideas and reciepies for my business plan so follow me on twitter @TillyzAh_BADDIE
and i'll post again soon! outro!!

New Years Resolution! 2011

My new years resolution for 2010 was to make $5,000 I still need to do some calculating but I think I might have accomplished it lol.

My 2011 new years resolution is.. wait I have more than 1 so I'm gonna list them all and I don't have to accomplish them in the order that I post them lol.

1.Start my first business.

2.Get into a REAL relationship with a guy where we actually go on dates and things like that.

3.Focus on school, no distractions while in class!(no procrastination)

4.Get a job

5. Make $7,000(seems resonable considering I made about 4 or 5,000 in 2010)

6.Get my drivers license

7.Pay off all my debts

8.Get my car fixed

9.Get a tattoo

10.Gain 200 more followers on twitter lol THAT WAS A FAKE ONE LOL.

I believe I can accomplish everything on this list and I will make it happen!

New Year!! 2011

Okay,, I haven't been posting pretty much NOTHING on this blog in along time. I might have out grown it I'm not sure yet it will still stay posted but I'm thinking about starting a new blog on a different website.

Still not sure but I might do it for the business

TillyTV: Look whos talkin now!

19 months and he's already telling ppl to shut up lol

TillyTV: My Nephew bookie!

Aww i miss him bein this small!

"You never realize what you got until its gone"

It seems like ALL my relationships end because of all the dudes have they own shit going on and they say they "Don't have no time for a girlfriend or relationship" trust me I've heard the same shit from ALMOST every ex boyfriend. Its the classic line "its Not you its ME" bullshit, but the thing about it is, I know its not me lol it really must be them

I'm a good person, a GREAT friend I'm the kinda person that I would wanna date, like I'm waiting to find the one person who's just like me on the inside but what I look for in a dude on the outside. When that happends I'll be thee happiest girl in the history of the worldd!

I want quality time, conversation that makes me laugh and smile not that makes me wanna shank myself, and somebody I can spend time with, we don't have to be doing nothing and I'm having a good time. Thats how I felt about the one I loved. The feelings that I feel for my ex is what I want someone to feel for me. When will it come?

I ask God for signs of what to do yet I still get NO answer or maybe I'm gettin an answer but not really paying any attention to it. I'm not sure what to do.

Maybe one day he will do like the rest of my ex's did and come back telling me "I love you Chauntill, I want stupid, selfish an ungrateful and I want you to take me back" that's what I want because I love him so much and I want him to love me too. I just feel in my heart that its not gonna happen... I guess that could be the sign I've been looking for,, who know's... maybe he will wake up one day and come to his senses and think "I'm stupid Chauntill is the one for me, she's sucha good girlfriend and she deserves the best and i messed up i need to apologize" that right there is wat im waiting for..

Weight Loss

BEFORE


AFTER


Not a huge change in my sight but its DRASTIC in the sight of others, I think all the weight I lost came from my thighss and my butt.
I went from being 145 and now I weigh 122.

I don't eat. I can't help it, My emotions take over my whole body like they control me and if stress is at a high then I don't eat. From early July til mid September I had been going back an forth to the doctors office gettin blood drawn taking urine tests getting ultra sounds an xrays for them to figure out what was wrong with me and they had no clue then they finally realized it was a urinary tract infection.

I never felt so awkward in my body through all the years I've been living. The boy I love(my 1st love) told me he wasn't sexually attracted to me anymore. Pretty much my new found skinniness made him sick to his stomach. Other people have been telling him I look sick and my head is too big for my body, I am already self conscientious enough without people saying bad things about the way I look.

I'm not sure if this is right to say.. sometimes I think if I was to get hurt and end up in the hospital would anybody come to visit me. I feel like I don't have anybody. even the one I love isnt here for me, I have been trying to gain weight but the constant thought of all the stuff ive been going through makes me sick to my stomach and not want to eat. Maybe I should talk to someone I don't really know what to do anymore