Rags, Riches and Fake ass Bitches!

Omgee life fuckin sucks monkey balls lol jk! But its not all that tho. I'm doing wonderful in school so far, things are gettin better with the family but my grandma hasn't been doin too good : ( .. My job search has been moving along fairly well nd I got a 2nd interview at this place so I'm kinda excited about that, and in lyk a month and a half or something lyk that my bestfriend will be moving back!! I'm excited for her to move back so I dnt have to keep waisting my time with fake ass bitches pretending to be my friends when all they do is judge me. A lot of people might not kno but my family isn't the richest of them all, we get by on what we have for now nd are always looking for ways to make more, I might dress nice and have a lot of things nd have this no one can touch me attitude nd that's all true nd good but I'm not a superficial stuck up bitch. I'm somebody who kno's wat its like to live without things, I kno wat its lyk to be working and giving most of your lil check to your mom so yal still have a place to stay, I kno wat its like to watch my mom work 2 and 3 jobs to support her 4 kids while my dads off fuckin somebody else or gettin high. These days everybody doesn't come from the traditional mom nd dad family, I've lived the life before but I hated it cause my dads a crazy ass bastard. I'm one that kno's wat its like to live a hard life and I hate when people take it as jealousy just because you compliment them on things that they have, its jus a fuckin compliment not saying "o I'm so jealous I wish I had your life" cause never in all my 17 years as Chauntill Porter have those words ever even crossed my lips. I will congradulate but never will I hate on someone if there's not a valid reason. People think just because you grow up having whatever you want means that your a spoiled brat or whatever but that's not always true because I kno people who's parents taught them to be humble, just because you were brought into a family full of money doesn't always mean that you'll have it, so I think its good that some people teaches their children that. But I really dislike when people have to hit with low blows like if you had a problem with something I said to you, be a woman or man about yours and tell me how you feel because for one thing I kno that I'm the type of person who says wat she feels and never will I stop because that's just who I am, and if I got something to say to you I'll say it to your face aint no thang but a chicken wang lol but on some real shit people who try to win by throwing low blows that's some "bitchassness" straight to the core and its fucked up, that's lyk you and somebody havin a few arguementative words and then one person rolls up on you from behind and start punching you in the back of the head that's a bitch move and you kno it! If you gone confront somebody do it face to face, not on the phone or through text message, email, myspace or anything that deals with the internet especially if the person your secretly talking shit about(even if you didn't mention names people aint dumb they can read in between the lines, even though you were trying to talk in code I still kno you was referring to me). Ugh but now that that's off my chest on to some good stuff! Been single for 9 months nd 16 days, still kinda lyk partially happy I guess. I'm loving all my classes at school cause its mainly 3 then one I'm jus chillin cause I TA , but I'm enjoying being back at skool, I'm learning new stuff everyday, even tho I don't really like but a few people at tempe I'm not gonna leave ima jus stick it out for my last year of high school and ima do it without any of the little kiddy drama cause I'm too grown for that. I feel like hero is really helping me move forward in my job search and all that and thanks to it I had a interview on monday nd it went well nd i got emailed to come back for another one in lyk 2 weeks so i'm excited about that. I'm not the type of person who feels like gods just in one place, like a church or temple or where ever, god is everywhere, so I don't feel like I have to faithfully go to church every sunday just to listen to somebody talk about the lord and what he can do for me, because I already kno that jesus loves me, and yes I feel like I need a closer relationship with god but that doesn't mean that goin to church will give me that, I pray at night, I pray when I need to and I talk to god when I feel like I need guidance so people please don't try to preach to me because what you believe is what you believe and the same goes for me and I can't stand when people try to convert others its annoying. I believe all that matters is that I believe god and he will guide me onto the right path for my future and I don't really care if you feel the same or not because its not about you its about me and my life. I was born into a desent family not the best but I'm happy to be blessed with the people that I have, I believe in bob marley's saying "don't worry, about a thang, because every little thing is gonna be alright" and I think that my family will be alright, my mom has her business and she's gettin new clients and hopefully soon I'll have a job to add onto the good comings that's been going on. I kno the title is rags, riches and fake ass bitches but I've never been in rags lol I've always had nice and good things because my momma worked her ass off to give us what we needed and wanted, I've had a nice long taste of the riches and we slowly gettin back there nd I'm happy about that, and I already covered the fake ass bitches part so I'm done with this because my fingers hurt lol blogging from a sidekick isn't always sucha good idea my thumbs are going numb so I'm done lol bye!

Itz tilly babii

Jon B

Someone to love

i forgot to add this video to the list.

The music that just touches my soul

Love you 4 life(jodeci)


Forever my lady(jodeci)


If i ever fall in love(shai)


Cry 4 you(jodeci)


Feenin(jodeci)


Freek-n-you(jodeci)


Blackstreet-Don't Leave


Tevin Campbell(tell me what you want me to do)


New edition(can you stand the rain)


Blackstreet(can't get you outta my mind)


Afternoon 7(until you do me right)


Knockin boots(h-town)


Xscape: my little secret


The arms of the one who loves you-Xscape


theres so many more that I could add to this but i'd be posting videos forever because theres countless videos that i love from back in the day and hopefully the music now will get better cause compared to this the new music aint shit lol my opinion but i'm sure alot of others think so too. it took me some hours to put this blog together cause i was too busy jammin to the music lol then i had to go back nd put the videos on here so i hope you like it lol give me feed back on here or hit my email psycho_sistahz@yahoo.com, o yea nd p.s. you dnt have to have a blogspot account to comment lol so hit me up wit the thoughts nd comments..

Hott Shitt

okay so here's some shoes that I have and others that I like nd some thats just too much lol. now i would rock these with a solid blue jeans nd a plain white v-neck cuz i think thats the only thing that would work with these

now these shoes i actually own and i rock them with a pink shirt on top with the green one underneath it but still visible


these ones rite here are really nice they match my composition notebook and i like that lol

i like the blue on these



these are my favorite color


i'd wear these too cuz they cute


i'd wear these too

i think i'd have to say that nikes is my favorite shoes

i dnt thnk i would wear these its alil too many colors


these are cute i'd so wear these


now time for vans

i like the ones above i'd wear them

i want some of these i've been wanting some for awhile so hopefully i shud b gettin some soon


i like both the high tops nd the low tops too so i'd get both cuz they're cute


i like these too


i want some of these in pink in black, red nd black nd these ones too

o yea nd in purple nd light blue nd white
nd i'd wear these ones too

and in this picture you see me throwin up the 10' in my orange outfit rockin my original orange vans

When Boredum Kicks In What do you do?

For me it really depends on the day but yesterday I was so bored that I took 2 naps nd in the end I was awake all night lol but on a normal day if i'm bored I jus text I mean I do it all the time its how I talk with people cause i'm barely ever on the phone lol. Other days When i'm bored i'll jus start writing either on paper or in the notes on my sidekick then eventually email it to myself and turn it into a blog if its interesting. I was working on one about fashion trends and fads but I didn't finish that yet but it should hopefully be done by the end of the week. If i get extremely bored and I wanna eat I'll start cooking and when I cook I need to focus I get my music out all my food that I'm using and everything then I get down to business. I've lately been really bored of watching tv since our cable got turned off and I can only watch my videos on the computer this is were I be at lol I should probably be doing something useful when I'm sitting around texting all day but whatever lol if you could get paid to text I'd be the richest person not in the whole world but i'd have some bank lol. Sometimes when super bored I draw, other times I go outside nd ride my scooter or play basketball with my lil brother but lately I havent been doing any of that. At home I've been tryn to start off good with the first week of school by turning everything in on time and payin attention in class even tho some days they bore me so much I be dosin lol I've been tryn to stay occupied so I don't be bored but it doesn't always work. well I'm already gettin bored of this topic lol so bye

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Just Wanna Be Loved

these are love pictures that i found on phottbucket and this is what i want :( but i never get it in a relationship..







all these pictures make me sad and make me sick at the same time because i've never had any of it the closest i've had to it was this picture of me and tevin at the mall

maybe its cuz im young but i jus want to have a real relationship cause i've never had one before.

What Characteristics Make A Person "Weird" in peoples eyes?

I always wondered that because It may sound funny but I think I'm weird.
I'm not exactly sure what about me is "weird" I don't kno maybe I'm jus different from all the other people I kno. I've had to endure a hard life it might not have been as hard as other peoples but it was hard to me because its mine. Maybe I think I'm weird cause I'm not like anybody I kno, or because I do things that other people don't, or is it the things I say? I'm not sure. One thing that's normal for me but might be weird for others is I have a blanket I mean not lyk a regular blanket that you sleep with but a security blanket like LINUS from charlie brown you carry around this blanket. I have 3 and my grandma made all them for me, afew of my friends have given me weird looks lyk wtf is that for but all my really close ones jus accept it without critisizing me for having it.

Something else that I think is weird about me, the thought of pain kinda excites me but when I see something painful happening then I get really sqweemish lol that's weird I thnk cause it doesn't really make any sence but I understand it lol.

I was watching super bad nd evan nd seth were talking on the phone and seth tells evan don't make me feel weird for liking porn your the weird one for not liking porn I'm normal as shit lmao that was funny. But that might make me weird because I don't really see a problem with watching porn like if you wanna watch it that's on you lol so here's a video clip of the first part seen of the movie which is there phone conversation..


um lets see something else that's weird about me... okay so the movie "friday" theres a part where his girlfriend calls him and shes like "who the fuck you go to the show with lastnight?"hes like "i didn't go to the show lastnight" nd shes like "you aint gots to lie craig you aint gots to lie" he says "aint nobody lyin i didn't go to the show lastnight" she says "yes you did cuz my sister in laws baby cousin tracy she told me she went to the show lastnight and she saw you there all hugged up wit some trap now tell me who she was" he says "yo sister in law baby cousin tracy is a goddamn ay she a lie she aint see me at no movies hugged up wit nobody" nd i jus think its so funny how shes tryna call him out but she got another dude sleeping in her bed lmfao i love this movie
o yea but my whole point about this part is me nd my siblings watch this movie all the time nd ever since then i call all them craig lmao i be like you aint gots to lie craig you aint gots to lie.


Mmmm I can't think of anything else at the momment that might make me weird lmao if i come up with anything else then i'll make a part 2 lol
do you think im weird? if so leave me comments nd tell me why lol send me ideas nd topics to my email psycho_sistahz@yahoo.com